a few weeks ago, i had this really scary dream. it was about my closest loved one, my mei.

anyway, this is what the dream was about...

my mei was about to leave for Beijing was some studies, most prob some physiotherapy course. anyway, spore was experiencing some really bad weather and it predicted that an impending hurricane would strike our island really soon. (according to the dream, she would die on the flight to beijing.) but she still decided to go ahead despite the dangers posed.

before she left, i just pulled her towards me and embraced her very tightly, refusing to let go. then we started to cry uncontrollably. the tears just spilled over. i cant seem to forget that particular part of my dream.

the feeling of losing her seemed so surreal. i felt that i was really going to lose her and the thought of it scares the sh*t out of me.

after being so tramautised by this dream, can you imagine what would happen if (touch wood!)one uneventful day, she's taken away from me? i mean having her around me (literally 24/7, 12 months a year) for exactly 18 years, 3 months and 12 days, i've already grown so used to her being around me.

but having her so close to me has its own disadvantages too. it took me a very very long time and lotsa effort to accept someone [she shld know this]. maybe i was just being over-protective of her. just like how she took such a tough time to accept mine in the past.

funny thing is that it is as though our lives have been fused or interlocked from the beginning. we've never been apart for more than 3 days. (due to camps or chalets) haha. even during the 3 days, i will miss her too.

through kindergarden, primary school, seconday school and now, junior college, we've been more than just sisters alone. instead, she has become my friend, friendly competitor, CCA mate, supporter, advisor and even, my bickering partner.

i cant tell you how much i appreciate and cherish her. despite always bickering with her over minuscule issues such as how much money she owes me, hey, i still [*ahem] love her k. [dun cringe!]

well, i cant envisage the life without her. life seems impossible without her. i shld start cherishing her. so i will start it by declaring YOU, yesh, YOU, the love of my life. wahahaha. i'll not love someone more than i love you. [wahh. goosebumps!!!] hahah. (:

posted by pam @ 12:00 AM